Sunday, August 9, 2009

Through a daughter's eyes

Little girls look up to their fathers as an invincible superman. The man with a thousand kisses and a thousand words of wisdom. As a girl grows older they search for their fathers off switch, but no matter how hard they look the advice, criticism and most of all the love shines through. They know he will always be there, from when they fall off their bikes, to the first time behind the wheel, and the dreaded first interrogation of a boyfriend.
As they grow up and move away she knows he will be there to walk her down the aisle to give her away, even though he knows the guy standing at the end will never be good enough for her. And she knows he is just waiting till the time he can share his parenting advice with her little bundles of joy.
But life doesn’t always run that smoothly, sometimes the superhero does fall, and he falls hard. Lying there in a bed with machines beeping, working overtime to keep his ever-giving heart alive. Unaware of the loved one around, needing his comforting arms around them, his reassuring words whispered in their ears. The daughter stands in a corner wishing she could go back in time. Wanting to take back every pity argument, every word she muttered under her breath and every time she wished he could just go away and shut up. To go back to that morning and take a little more time to say goodbye, not to have run from his open arms. She would take it all back just to see her superman back in the air untouchable and annoying as ever.
Everyone claims big girls don’t cry, but as they watch as their invincible superman falls to the ground and becomes a man among man, even the strongest girls can’t stop the tears.